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MS      Manuscript, leaves numbered 1–44, written on 24, 25, and 26 December 1909.

MS is written on buff-colored wove paper measuring 5¾ by 9 inches. On 14 January 1910 Clemens wrote to Paine, requesting that Paine’s wife make a typescript from MS and send it to Clara, but no typescript has been found (photocopy in CU-MARK). The text that appeared in Harper’s Monthly in January 1911 was prepared by Paine and has no sign of authorial revision; its minor variants are therefore not reported.

Closing Words of My Autobiographytextual noteexplanatory note

Stormfield, Christmas Eve, 11 a.m., 1909.

Jean is dead!

And so this Autobiography closes here. I had a reason for projecting it, three years ago: that reasontextual note perishes with her.

The reason that moved me was a desire to save my copyrights from extinction, so [begin page 311] that Jean and Clara would always have a good livelihood from my books after my death. I meant that whenever a book of mine should approach its forty-two-yeartextual note limit, it should at once be newly issued, with about 20,000textual note words of Autobiography added to its contents. This would be copyrightable for a term of twenty-eighttextual note years and would practically keep the whole book alive during that term. I meant to write 500,000 words of Autobiography, and I did it.

That tedious long labor was wasted. Last March Congress added fourteentextual note years to the forty-two-yeartextual note term, and so my oldest book has now about fifteentextual note years to liveexplanatory note. I have no use for that addition, (I am seventy-four years old),textual note poor Jean has no use for it now, Clara is happily and prosperously marriedexplanatory note and has no use for it.

Man proposes, Circumstances dispose.

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Has any one ever tried to put upon paper all the little happenings connected with a dear one—happenings of the twenty-four hours preceding the sudden and unexpected death of that dear one? Would a book contain them? would two books contain them? I think not. They pour into the mind in a flood. They are littletextual note things that have been alwaystextual note happening every day, and were always so unimportant and easily forgetable before—but now! Now, how different! how precious they are, how dear, how unforgetable, how pathetic,textual note how sacred, how clothed with dignity!

Last night Jean, all flushed with splendid health; and I the same, from the wholesome effects oftextual note my Bermuda holidayexplanatory note, strolled hand in hand from the dinner table and sat down in the library and chatted, and planned, and discussed, cheerily and happily (and how unsuspectingly!) until ninetextual note,—which is late for us—then went up stairs, Jean’s friendly German dog following. At my door Jeantextual note said, “I can’t kiss you good nighttextual note, father: I have a cold, and you could catch it.” I bent and kissed her hand. She was moved—I saw it in her eyes—and shetextual note impulsively kissed my hand in return. Then with the usual gaytextual note “Sleep well, dear!” from both, we parted.

At half past seventextual note this morning I woke, and heard voices outside my door. I said to myself, “Jean is starting on her usual horseback-flight to the station for the mail.” Then Katy entered, stood quaking and gasping at my bedside a moment, then found her tongue:

“Miss Jean is dead!”

Possibly I know now what thetextual note soldier feelstextual note when a bullet crashes through his heart.

In her bath-roomtextual note there she lay, thetextual note fair young creature, stretched upon the floor and covered with a sheet. And looking so placid, so natural, and as if asleep. We knew what had happened. She was an epileptic: she had been seizedtextual note with a convulsion and could not get out of the tub. Theretextual note was no help near, and she was drowned. The doctor had to come several miles. His efforts, like our previous ones,textual note failed to bring her back to life.textual note

It is noon, now. How lovable she looks, how sweet and how tranquil! It is a noble face, and full of dignity; and that was a good heart that lies there so still.

In England, thirteen years ago, my wife and I were stabbed to the heart with a [begin page 312] cablegram which said “Susy was mercifully released to-day.”explanatory note I hadtextual note to send a like shock to Clara, in Berlin, this morning. With the peremptorytextual note addition, “You must not come home.” Clara and her husband sailed from here on the 11th of this monthexplanatory note. How will Clara bear it? Jean, from her babyhood, was a worshipper of Clara.

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Four days ago I came back from a month’s holiday in Bermuda in perfected health; but by some accident the reporters failed to perceive this. Day before yesterday, letters and telegramstextual note began to arrive from friends and strangers which indicated that I was supposed to be dangerously ill. Yesterday Jean begged me to explain my case through the Associated Press. I said it was not important enough; but she was distressed and said I must think of Clara. Clara would see the report in the German papers, and as she had been nursing her husband day and night for four months and was worn out andtextual note feeble, the shock might be disastrous. There was reason in that; so I sent a humorous paragraph by telephone to the Associated Press denying the “charge” that I was “dying,” and saying “I would not do such a thing at my time of life.”

Jean watextual notes a little troubled, and did not like to see me treat the matter so lightly; but I said it was best to treat it so, for there was nothing serious about it. This morning I sent the sorrowful facts of this day’s irremediable disaster to the Associated Press. Will both appear in this evening’s papers?—the one so blithe, the other so tragicexplanatory note.

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I lost Susy thirteen years ago; I lost her mother—her incomparable mother!—five and a half years ago; Clara has gone away to live in Europe; and now I have lost Jean. How poor I am, who was once so rich!textual note Seven months ago Mr. Rogers died—textual notethe best friend I ever had, and the nearest perfect, as man and gentleman, I have yet met among my race; within the past four weeks Gilder has passed away, and Laffanexplanatory note—old, old friends of mine. Jean lies yonder, I sit here; we are strangers under our own roof; we kissed hands good-bye at this door last night—and it was forever, we never suspecting it. She lies there, and I sit here—writing, busying myself, to keep my heart from breaking. How dazzlingly the sunshine is flooding the hills around! It is like a mockery.

Seventy-four years old, twenty-four days ago. Seventy-four years old yesterday. Who can estimate my age to-day?

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I have looked upon her again. I wonder I can bear it. She looks just as her mother looked when she lay dead in that Florentine villa so long ago. The sweet placidity of death! it is more beautiful than sleep.

I saw hertextual note mother buried. I said I would never endure that horror again; that I would never again look into the grave of any one dear to me. I have kept to that. They will take Jean from this house to-morrow, and bear her to Elmira, New York,textual note where lie those of us that have been released, but I shall not follow.

[begin page 313] Jean was on the dock when the ship came in, only four days ago. She was at the door, beaming a welcome, when I reached this house the next evening. We played cards, and she tried to teach me a new game called “Mark Twain.” We sat chatting cheerily in the library last night, and she wouldn’t let me look into the loggia, where she was making Christmas preparations. She said she would finish them in the morning, and then her little French friendexplanatory note would arrive from New York—the surprise would follow; the surprise she had been working over for days. While she was out for a moment I disloyally stole a look. The loggia floor was clothed with rugs and furnished with chairs and sofas; and the uncompleted surprise was there: in the form of a Christmas tree that was drenched with silver films in a most wonderful way; and on a table was a prodigal profusion of bright things which she was going to hang upon it to-day. What desecrating hand will ever banishtextual note that eloquent unfinished surprise from that place?textual note Not mine, surely. All these little matters have happened in the last four days. “Little.” Yes—then. But not now. Nothing she said or thought or did, is little, now. Andtextual note all the lavish humor!—what is become of it? It is pathos, now. Pathos, and the thought of it brings tears.

All these little things happened such a few hours ago—and now she lies yonder. Lies yonder, and cares for nothing any more. Strange—marvelous—incredible! I have had this experience before; but it would still be incredible if I had had it a thousand times.

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“Miss Jean is dead!”

That is what Katy said. When I heard the door open behind the bed’s head without a preliminary knock, I supposed it was Jean coming to kiss me good morning, she being the only person who was used to entering without formalities.

And so—

I have been to Jean’s parlor. Such a turmoil of Christmas presents for servants and friendstextual note! They are everywhere; tables, chairs, sofas, the floor—everything is occupied, and over-occupiedtextual note. It is manytextual note and many a year since I have seen the like. In that ancient day Mrs. Clemens and I used to slip softly into the nursery at midnight on Christmas Eve and look the array of presents over. The children were little, then. And now here is Jean’s parlor looking just as that nursery used to look. The presents are not labeled—the hands are forevermore idle that would have labeled them to-day. Jean’s mother always worked herself down with her Christmas preparations. Jean did the same yesterday and the preceding days, and the fatiguetextual note has cost her her life. The fatigue caused the convulsion that attacked her this morning. She had had no attack for months.

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Jean was so full of life and energy that she was constantly in danger of overtaxing her strength. Every morning she was in the saddle by half past seventextual note, and off to the station for the mail. She examined the letters and Itextual note distributed them: some to her, some to Mr. Paine, the others to the stenographerexplanatory note and myself. She dispatched her share and then mounted her horse again and went around superintending her farm and her poultry the [begin page 314] rest of the day. Sometimes she played billiards with me aftertextual note dinner, but she was usually too tired to play, and went early to bed.

Yesterday afternoontextual note I told her about some plans I had been devising while absent in Bermuda, to lighten her burdens. We would get a housekeeper; also we would put her share of the secretary-work into Mr. Paine’s hands.

No—she wasn’t willing. She had been making plans herself. The matter ended in a compromise. I submitted. I always did. She wouldn’t audit the bills and let Paine fill out the checks—she would continue to attend to that herself. Also, she would continue to be housekeeper, and let Katy assist. Also, she would continue totextual note answer the letters of personal friends for me. Such was the compromise. Both of us called it by that name, though I was not able to see where any formidabletextual note change had been made.

However, Jean was pleased, and that was sufficient for me. She was proud of being my secretary, and I was never able to persuadetextual note her to give up any part of her share in that unlovely work. I paid her the compliment of saying she was the only honest and honorable secretary I had ever had, except Paine.textual note It is true that Jean had furnished me no statements, but I saidtextual note I hadn’t ever wanted them from her, for she was honest, and the lack of them had never caused me any uneasiness.

Oh, that unfortunate conversation! Unwittingly I was adding to her fatigues, and she was already so tired. Before night she suspended her Christmas labors, and drewtextual note up a detailedtextual note statement for November, and placed it in my hands. I said, “Oh, Jean, why did you do it? didn’t you know I was only chaffing?”

But she was full of the matter, and eager to show me that her administration had been care-taking and economical. The figures confirmed her words. In the talk last night I said I found everything going so smoothly that if she were willing I would go back to Bermuda in February and get blessedly out of the clash and turmoil again for another month. She was urgent that I should do it, and said that if I would put off the trip until March she would take Katy and go with me. We struck hands upon that, and said it was settled. I had a mind to write to Bermuda by to-morrow’stextual note ship and secure a furnishedtextual note house and servants. I meant to write the letter this morning. But it will never be written, now.

For she lies yonder, and before her is another journey than that.

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Night is closing down; the rim of the sun barely shows above the skyline of the hills.

I have been looking at that face again that was growing dearer and dearer to me every day. I was getting acquainted with Jean in these last ninetextual note months. She had been long an exile from home when she cametextual note to us three-quarters oftextual note a year ago. She had been shut up in sanitariums, many miles from us. How eloquently glad and gratefultextual note she was to cross her father’s threshold again!

Would I bring her back to life if I could do it? I would not. If a word would do it, I would beg for strength to withhold the word. And I would have the strength; I am sure of it. In her loss I am almosttextual note bankrupt, and my life is a bitterness, but I am content: fortextual note she [begin page 315] has been enriched with the most precious of all gifts—that gift which makes all other gifts mean and poor—death. I have never wanted any released friend of mine restored to life since I reached manhood. I felt in this way when Susy passed awaytextual note; and later my wife; and later Mr. Rogers. When Clara met me at the station in New York and told me Mr. Rogers had died suddenly that morning, my thought was, Oh, favorite of fortune—fortunate all his long and lovely life—fortunatetextual note to his latest moment! The reporterstextual note said there were tears of sorrow in my eyes. True—but they were for me, not for him. He had suffered no loss. All the fortunes he had ever made before were poverty compared with this one.textual note

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Why did I build this house, two years ago? To shelter this vast emptiness? How foolish I was.textual note But I shall stay in it. The spirits of the dead hallow a house, for me. It was not so with othertextual note members of my family. Susy died in the house we built in Hartford. Mrs. Clemens would never enter it again. But it made the house dearer to me. I have entered it once since, when it was tenantless and silent and forlorn, but to me it wastextual note a holy place and beautiful. It seemed to me that the spirits of the dead were all about me, and would speak to me and welcome me if they could: Livy, and Susy, and Georgeexplanatory note, and Henry Robinsonexplanatory note, and Charles Dudley Warner. How good and kind they were, and how lovable their lives! In fancytextual note I could see them all again, I could call the children back and hear them romp again with George—that peerless black ex-slavetextual note and children’s idol whotextual note came one day—a flitting stranger—to wash windows, and stayed eighteen years. Until he died. Clara and Jean would never enter again the New York hotelstextual note which their mother had frequented in earlier days. They could not bear it. But I shall stay in this house. textual noteIt is dearer to me to-night than ever it was before. Jean’s spirit will make it beautiful for me always. Her lonely and tragic death—but I will not think of that, now.

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Jean’s mother always devoted two or three weeks to Christmas shopping, and was always physically exhausted when Christmas Eve came. Jean was her verytextual note own child—she wore herself out present-hunting in New York these latter days. Paine has just found in her desk a long list of names—fifty, he thinks—people to whom she sent presents last night. Apparently she forgot no one. And Katy found there a roll of bank notes, for the servants. Also two books of signed checks which I gave her when I went to Bermuda. She hadtextual note used half of them.

Her dog has been wandering about the grounds to-day, comradeless and forlorn. I have seen him from the windows.textual note She got him from Germanyexplanatory note. He has tall ears and looks exactly like a wolf. He was educated in Germany, and knows no language but the German. Jean gave him no orders save in that tongue. And so, when the burglar alarmtextual note made a fierce clamor at midnight a fortnight ago, the butler, who is French and knows no German, tried to interest the dog in the supposed burglar. He remembered two or three of Jean’s German commands (without knowing their meaning), and he shouted them to the eager dog. “Leg’ Dich!” (lie down!) The dog obeyed—to the butler’s distress. [begin page 316] “Sei ruhig!” (be still!) The dog stretched himself on the floor, and even stopped batting the floor with his tail. Then Jean came running, in her night clothes, and shouted “Los!” (gotextual note! fly! rush!) and the dog sped away like the wind, tearing the silences to tatters with his bark. Jeantextual note wrote me, to Bermuda, about the incident. It was the last letter I was ever to receive from her bright head and her competent hand. The dog will not be neglected.textual note

Paine has come in to say the reporters want photographs of Jean. He has found some proofs in her desk—excellent ones, and evidently not a fortnighttextual note old. This is curiously fortunate, for she has not been photographed before for more than a year.

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There was never a kinder heart than Jean’s. From her childhood up she always spent the most of her allowance on charities of one kind and another. Aftertextual note she became secretary and had her income doubled she spent her money upon these things with a free hand. Mine too, I am glad and grateful to say.

She was a loyal friend to all animals, and she loved them all, birds, beasts and everything—even snakes—an inheritance from me. She knew all the birds; she was high up in that lore. She became a member of various humane societies when she was still a little girl—both here and abroad—and she remained an active member to the last. She founded two or threetextual note societies for the protection of animals, heretextual note and in Europe.

She was an embarrassing secretary, for she fished my correspondence out of the waste-baskettextual note and answered the letters. She thought all letters deserved the courtesy of an answer. Her mother brought her up in that kindly error.

She could write a good letter, and was swift with her pen. She had but an indifferent ear for music, but her tongue took to languages with an easy facility. She never allowed her Italian, French and German to get rusty through neglect.

Her unearned and atrocious malady—epilepsy—damaged her disposition when its influence was upon her, and made her say and do ungentle things; but when the influence passed away her inborn sweetness returned, and then she was wholly lovable. Her disease, and its accompanying awful convulsions, wore out her gentle mother’s strength with grief and watching and anxiety, and caused her death, poor Livy!textual note Jean’s—like her mother’s—was a fine character; there is no finer.

The telegrams oftextual note sympathy are flowing in, from far and wide, now,textual note just as they did in Italytextual note five years and a half ago, when this child’s mother laid down hertextual note blameless life. They cannot heal the hurt, but they take away some of the pain. When Jean and I kissed hands and parted at my door last, how little did wetextual note imagine thattextual note in twenty-two hours the telegraph would be bringing me words like these!

“From the bottom of our hearts we send our sympathy, dearest of men and dearest of friends.”

For many and many a day to come,textual note wherever I go in this house, remembrancers of Jean will mutely speak to me of her.textual note Who can count the number of them?

[begin page 317] She was an exile so long, so long! There are no words to express how grateful I am that she did not meet her fate in the house of a stranger, but in the loving shelter of her own home.textual note

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“Miss Jean is dead!”

It is true. Jean is dead.textual note

A month ago I was writing bubbling and hilarious articlestextual note for magazines yet to appear, and now I am writing—this.textual note

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Christmas Day. Noon. Last night I went to Jean’s room at intervals, and turned back the sheet and lookedtextual note at the peaceful face, and kissed the cold brow, and remembered that heart-breakingtextual note night in Florence so long ago, in that cavernous and silent vast villa, when I crept down stairs so many times, and turned back a sheet and looked at a face just like this one—Jean’s mother’s face—and kissed a brow that was just like this one. And last night I saw again what I had seen then—that strange and lovely miracle—the sweet soft contours of early maidenhood restored by the gracious hand of death! When Jean’s mother lay dead, all trace of care, and trouble, and suffering, and the corroding years had vanished out of the face, and I was looking again upon ittextual note as I had known it and worshipedtextual note it in its young bloom and beauty a whole generation before.

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About threetextual note in the morning, whiletextual note wandering about the house in the deep silences, as one does in times like these, when there is a dumb sense that something has been lost that will nevertextual note be found again, yet must be sought, if only for the employment the useless seeking gives, I came upon Jean’s dog in the hall down stairs, and notedtextual note that he did not spring to greet me, according to his hospitable habit, but came slow and sorrowfully; also I rememberedtextual note that he had not visited Jean’s apartment since the tragedy. Poor fellow, did he know? I think so. Always when Jean was abroad in the open he was with her; always when she was in the house he was with her, in the night as well as in the day. Her parlor wastextual note his bedroom. Whenever I happened upon him on the ground floor he always followed me about, and when I went up stairs he went too—in a tumultuous gallop. But now it was different: after petting him a little I went to the library—he remained behind; when I went up stairs he did not follow me, save with his wistful eyes. He has wonderful eyes—big, and kind, and eloquent. He can talk with them. He is a beautiful creature, and is of the breed of the New York police-dogs.textual note I do not like dogs, because they bark when there is no occasion for it; but I have liked this one from the beginning, because he belonged to Jean, and because he never barks except when there is occasion—which is not oftener than twice a week.

In my wanderings I visited Jean’s parlor. On a shelf I found a pile of my books, and I knew what it meant. She was waiting for me to come home from Bermuda and autograph [begin page 318] them, then she would send them away. If I only knew whom she intended them for! But I shall never know. I willtextual note keep them. Her hand has touched them—it is an accolade—they are noble, now.textual note

And in a closet she had hidden a surprise for me—a thing I have often wished I owned: a noble big globe. I couldn’t see it for the tears. She will never know the pride I take in it, and the pleasure. To-day the mails are full of loving remembrances for her; full of those old, old kind words she loved so well, “Merry Christmas to Jean!” If she could only havetextual note lived one day longer!

At last she ran out of money, and would not use mine. So she sent to one of those New York homes for poor girls all the clothes she could spare—and more, most likely.

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Christmas Night. This afternoon they took her away from her room. As soon as I might, I went down to the library, and there she lay, in her coffin, dressed in exactly the same clothes she wore when she stood at the other end of the same room on the 6th of October last, as Clara’s chief bridesmaid. Her face was radiant with happy excitement then; it was the same face now, with the dignity of death and the peace of God upon it.

They told me the first mourner to come was the dog. He came uninvited, and stood up on his hind legs and rested his forepaws upon the trestle, and took a long last look at the face that was so dear to him, then went his way as silently as he had come. He knows.

At mid-afternoon it began to snow. The pity of it—that Jean could not see it! She so loved the snow.

The snow continued to fall. At six o’clock the hearse drew up to the door to beartextual note away its pathetic burden, Painetextual note playing Schubert’s “Impromptu,” which was Jean’s favoriteexplanatory note. Then he played the “Intermezzo”textual note; that was for Susy; then he played the “Largo”textual note: that was for their mother. He did this at my request. Elsewhere in this Autobiography I have told how the “Intermezzo”textual note and the “Largo”textual note came to be associated,textual note in my heart,textual note with Susy and Livyexplanatory note intextual note their last hours in this life.

From my windows I saw the hearsetextual note and the carriages wind along the road and gradually grow vague and spectral in the falling snow, and presently disappear. Jean was gone out of my life, and would not come back any more. The cousin she had played with when they were babies togetherexplanatory note—he and her beloved old Katy—were conductingtextual note her to her distant childhood home, where she will lie by her mother’s side once more, in the company of Susy and Langdon.textual note

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December 26. The dog came to see me at eighttextual note o’clocktextual note this morning. He was very affectionate, poor orphan! My room will be his quarters hereafter.

The storm raged all night. It has raged all the morning. The snow drives across the landscape in vast clouds, superb, sublime—textual noteand Jean not here to see.textual note

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[begin page 319] 2.30 p.m. It is the time appointed. The funeral has begun. Four hundred miles away, but I can see it all, just as if I were there. The scene is the library, in the Langdon homestead. Jean’s coffin standstextual note where her mother and I stood, forty years ago, and were married; and where Susy’s coffin stood thirteentextual note yearstextual note ago; wheretextual note her mother’s stood, five years and a half ago; and where mine will stand, after a little time.

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Five o’clock. It is all over.

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When Clara went awaytextual note two weeks agotextual note to live in Europe, it was hard, but I could bear it, for I had Jean left. I said we would be a family. We said we would be close comrades and happy—just we two. That fair dream was in my mind when Jean met me at the steamer last Monday; it was in my mind when she received me at this door last Tuesday evening. We were together; we were a family! the dream had come true—oh, preciously true, contentedlytextual note true, satisfyingly true! and remained true two whole days.

And now? Now,textual note Jean is in the grave!

In the grave—if I can believe it.textual note God rest her sweet spirit!

Mark Twaintextual note

End of the Autobiography. explanatory note

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  said there were tears of sorrow . . . this one. ●  said there were tears of sorrow . . . this one. inserted on the verso with instructions to turn over  (MS) 
  How foolish I was. ●  How foolish I was.  (MS) 
  other ●  tho other (MS) 
  was ●  was  (MS) 
  In fancy ●  In fancy  (MS) 
  ex-slave ●  soul ex-slave (MS) 
  who ●  whom  (MS) 
  hotels ●  hotels  (MS) 
  this house. ●  this. house.  (MS) 
  very ●  very  (MS) 
  had ●  had  (MS) 
  I have seen him from the windows. ●  I have seen him from the windows.  (MS) 
  burglar alarm ●  burglar-alarm (MS) 
  go ●  Go (MS) 
  Jean ●  Ju Jean (MS) 
  The dog will not be neglected. ●  The dog will not be neglected.  (MS) 
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  After ●  Since After (MS) 
  two or three ●  one or two or three  (MS) 
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  Livy! ●  Liv Livy! corrected miswriting  (MS) 
  of ●  are of (MS) 
  now, ●  now,  (MS) 
  Italy ●  Florence Italy (MS) 
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  we ●  we  (MS) 
  that ●  thant (MS) 
  to come, ●  to come,  (MS) 
  me of her. ●  me. of her.  (MS) 
  home. ●  home. !  (MS) 
  dead. ●  dead. God rest her sweet spirit!  (MS) 
  articles ●  magazine articles (MS) 
  this. ●  this. [¶] Jean is dead. How strange it sounds. flush right Mark Twain | [paraph] [¶] End of the Autobiography. | #  (MS) 
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  heart-breaking ●  heart-breaking  (MS) 
  it ●  the face it  (MS) 
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  I will ●  I will  (MS) 
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  have ●  have  (MS) 
  drew up to the door to bear ●  bore drew up to the door to bear  (MS) 
  Paine ●  Payne (MS) 
  “Intermezzo” ●  Intermezzo (MS) 
  “Largo” ●  Largo (MS) 
  “Intermezzo” ●  Intermezzo (MS) 
  “Largo” ●  Largo (MS) 
  be associated, ●  be associated, me  (MS) 
  in my heart, ●  in my heart,  (MS) 
  Livy in ●  Livy, and in  (MS) 
  the hearse ●  the car the hearse (MS) 
  together—he and her beloved old Katy—were conducting ●  together was con- | —he and her beloved old Katy—were con-ducting (MS) 
  Langdon. ●  Langdon. [¶] Why did I not go? I saw the mother buried. I believed, then, I could never endure again the heart-break of seeing any one dear to me put under the ground. And it was true.  (MS) 
  eight ●  8 (MS) 
  o’clock ●  o’clock, when I was breakfasting in bed.  (MS) 
  sublime— ●  sublime,  (MS) 
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  years ●  year’s (MS) 
  where ●  and where (MS) 
  away ●  away,  (MS) 
  ago ●  ago,  (MS) 
  contentedly ●  satis contentedly (MS) 
  Now, ●  Now,  (MS) 
  it. ●  it. What shall I do?  (MS) 
  Twain ●  Twain | [paraph] (MS) 
Explanatory Notes Closing Words of My Autobiography
 

title Closing Words of My Autobiography] The source of the present text is a manuscript that Clemens wrote over three days—24, 25, and 26 December 1909.

 

desire to save my copyrights from extinction . . . oldest book has now about fifteen years to live] Mark Twain’s oldest book, The Innocents Abroad, was published in 1869. Under the previous law, its copyright could not be renewed beyond 1911; the law passed in March 1909 extended it until 1925 (for more of Clemens’s comments about copyright see AutoMT2 , 337–42, and AD, 24 Nov 1908).

 

Clara is happily and prosperously married] Clara had married Ossip Gabrilowitsch at Stormfield on 6 October 1909. Born in St. Petersburg, Russia, Gabrilowitsch (1878–1936) was a musical prodigy who studied piano under Theodor Leschetizky in Vienna. It was there that he met Clara, his teacher’s new pupil, in 1898. Over the next decade he established himself as a successful concert pianist, touring in Europe and America, while he and Clara maintained a turbulent relationship. They were briefly engaged twice, Clara breaking it off in each case. Gabrilowitsch renewed his courtship in the fall of 1908, when Clara ended her romantic attachment to Charles Wark. In the summer of 1909, Clara cared for Gabrilowitsch at Stormfield while he recovered from a dangerous illness; she accepted his third proposal late in September (see AD, 6 Oct 1908, note at 267.36–37; Shelden 2010, 93–95, 301–4, 378–80; CC 1938, 1–51).

 

from the wholesome effects of my Bermuda holiday] Clemens traveled to Bermuda on 20 November, accompanied by Paine, and returned on 20 December.

 

In England, thirteen years ago . . . “Susy was mercifully released to-day.”] Clemens received notice in London of Susy Clemens’s death in Hartford on 18 August 1896, while Olivia and Clara were en route to New York (see AutoMT1 , 323–25).

 

Clara and her husband sailed from here on the 11th of this month] Clara and Ossip had planned to sail for Germany, where Ossip had concert engagements, ten days after their wedding; but their honeymoon in Atlantic City was interrupted when he suffered an appendicitis, and was operated on at a New York sanatorium. His European engagements had to be canceled. Clara and he were not able to sail for Germany (where they stayed with his parents) until December (CC 1938, 51–52; “Operation on Gabrilowitsch,” New York Tribune, 19 Oct 1909, 7).

 

I was supposed to be dangerously ill . . . the one so blithe, the other so tragic] Reporters who greeted Clemens upon his return from Bermuda reported that he “did not look well” and was suffering from a “severe pain in his chest.” He told them, “I have five or six unfinished tasks, including my autobiography, and do not know when I will finish them. I have done almost nothing in the last three years. I may take up my autobiography again in a few weeks. I have published 100,000 words and expect to have 500,000 published, mostly after I am dead” (“Mark Twain Back in Poor Health,” San Francisco Chronicle, 21 Dec 1909, 1; “Mark Twain Comes Home Ill,” Chicago Tribune, 21 Dec 1909, 5). On 23 December he issued the following “blithe” statement: “I hear the newspapers say I am dying. The charge is not true. I would not do such a thing at my time of life. I am behaving as good as I can. Merry Christmas to everybody!” Jean’s death was announced on Christmas Day (New York Times: “Twain’s Merry Christmas,” 24 Dec 1909, 6; “Miss Jean Clemens Found Dead in Bath,” 25 Dec 1909, 1).

 

Seven months ago Mr. Rogers died . . . Gilder has passed away, and Laffan] Henry H. Rogers died on 19 May at age sixty-nine; Clemens learned the shocking news when he arrived at Grand Central Station, on his way to Rogers’s home. Richard Watson Gilder, editor of the Century Magazine, died at age sixty-five on 18 November. William Mackay Laffan, editor of the New York Sun, died the following day at age sixty-one (New York Times: “H. H. Rogers Dead, Leaving $50,000,000. Apoplexy Carries Off the Financier Famous in Standard Oil, Railways, Gas, and Copper” and “Mark Twain Grief-Stricken,” 20 May 1909, 1; “R. W. Gilder Dies of Heart Disease,” 19 Nov 1909, 1; “W. M. Laffan Dead of Appendicitis,” 20 Nov 1909, 11).

 

her little French friend] Marguerite (Bébé) Schmitt (see “The Ashcroft-Lyon Manuscript,” note at 342.15–21).

 

the stenographer] William E. Grumman (see “The Ashcroft-Lyon Manuscript,” note at 367.25).

 

George] Griffin ( AutoMT1 , 583 n. 335.28–32).

 

Henry Robinson] Attorney Henry C. Robinson (1832–1900), a Hartford friend ( AutoMT1 , 560 n. 272.36–37).

 

Her dog . . . She got him from Germany] See “The Ashcroft-Lyon Manuscript,” note at 342.15–21.

 

Schubert’s “Impromptu,” which was Jean’s favorite] Probably op. 142, no. 2 (D.935, no. 2), also one of Clemens’s favorite pieces ( MTB , 3:1309).

 

I have told how the “Intermezzo” and the “Largo” came to be associated, in my heart, with Susy and Livy] The autobiography contains no mention of the “Intermezzo,” from Mascagni’s Cavalleria Rusticana, or of Handel’s “Largo,” from the opera Xerxes. But Lyon recorded in her journal their special significance for Clemens:

I have been playing to Mr. Clemens, playing his favorites—and after I had played many things that he loves, I took up the Largo— He sat in the big green tufted chair quite near me, with his back toward me, and when I had finished it he said—“If you’re not tired play the Susie one.” That is the Intermezzo. I played it & he said “I can fit the words to both those pieces, as the coffins of Susie & her mother are borne through the dining room & the hall & the drawing room of the Hartford house, Susie calls to me in the Intermezzo & her mother in the Largo—& they are lamenting that they shall see that place no more—” (Lyon 1906, entry for 2 Mar)

 

The cousin she had played with when they were babies together] Jervis Langdon, Jr. (1875–1952), the son of Olivia’s brother, Charles J. Langdon ( MTB , 3:1548).

 

End of the Autobiography] In Mark Twain: A Biography, Paine printed a passage he said Clemens had “omitted” from “Closing Words of My Autobiography.” No manuscript of this text has been found in the Mark Twain Papers. It is reprinted here from Paine’s transcription ( MTB , 3:1552):

December 27. Did I know Jean’s value? No, I only thought I did. I knew a ten-thousandth fraction of it, that was all. It is always so, with us, it has always been so. We are like the poor ignorant private soldier—dead, now, four hundred years—who picked up the great Sancy diamond on the field of the lost battle and sold it for a franc. Later he knew what he had done.

Shall I ever be cheerful again, happy again? Yes. And soon. For I know my temperament. And I know that the temperament is master of the man, and that he is its fettered and helpless slave and must in all things do as it commands. A man’s temperament is born in him, and no circumstances can ever change it.

My temperament has never allowed my spirits to remain depressed long at a time.

That was a feature of Jean’s temperament, too. She inherited it from me. I think she got the rest of it from her mother.